The procession of travel and the unveiling of hidden gifts

So its been 2 months since I’ve been in Europe. I feel like this time has flown by. Lately, especially in the last 3 weeks, being in Granada, I feel like I’ve finally found my groove. This new life is getting easier, I’m feeling lighter, more freer, yet more in tune with my gifts more than ever. The past 2 weeks of being still, going to Spanish school, making connections, being immersed in the language 24/7 and the little things, like unpacking my backpack and having my own room, have all been the medicine that I’ve been looking for. I’ve come to realize that I’m not a ‘backpacker’- keen to tick sites off my list and being on the go, squeezing as much as in as possible. I’m on a pilgrimage, a quest, a journey, following the threads, the breadcrumbs, the connections, the coincidences of this life. I’m here to do what my heart is guiding me to do, what my soul is remembering, what my body is telling me, to completely surrender to the plethora of possibilities presented to me, and falling effortlessly onto that path…where that path is leading me.. I have no idea, and maybe I’ll never know.

The last 2 weeks, studying Spanish at a language school, which I have absolutely loved by the way- utilising my brain, re-wiring neural pathways and working my brain out so that I’m now able to listen to a conversation in Spanish with a pretty good idea of what’s being spoken. I’m able to have very basic, broken Spanish conversations which has in fact, contributed to opening my heart up even more with others who I meet, with being open in my body language and with having more confidence to speak up. For me, communication IS connection, and without that, I feel alone in a big big world… My Spanish teachers are the most kindest, patient, funny and beautiful Profesoras, they have given me the confidence to speak my truth, and let my quirky personality shine through in class… all in Spanish 

Ive been so lucky with my host mum. I chose to stay with a Spanish host mother over student accommodation as I wanted the 100% exposure to learning the language and its been incredible. Her names’ Lucia and shes a 50 something yr old – never married and no kids and hosts students full time and has done so for 25 years. From the moment I arrived, I felt so welcome, so welcome to the point where she did my laundry for me and hung out my undies. She cooks and cleans and is always home when I get home from school, eager to find out about my day and wanting to talk to me about my life, but equally knowing, when I need my space as well. We have wonderful conversations about life, the universe, manifestation, feminism, politics and global issues. I’ve also educated her about crypto-currency and she went and opened up an online wallet and has invested a small amount. She’s walked some Camino’s before and so we share this common interest. Lucia has made my time in Granada so memorable and has been the stable support person I didn’t think that I needed right now in my life.

Granada has given me life, joy and connections. I’ve met people in yoga classes, in salsa classes, in Spanish classes, in the cafes, restaurants, on walking tours and on Tinder.

For the past 10 weeks, I’ve been part of an online group called ‘Temple of the rose goddesses’ run by a beautiful wise woman named Juniper in the northern rivers, Aus. This sacred online container has transformed me and my approach to travel and the Goddess. Each week we have been working with a goddess deity from a pantheon and we learn about their history, energy, stories and what they stand for and their meaning. Having this weekly practice every Thursday and this circle of sisters has given me so much support, love, acknowledgement and connection to the divine feminine mysteries. And I tell you what, there’s synchronicities every week with the goddess we’re working with.

Just as an example- the week we worked with Medusa, I was in Madrid and walking around the city for the day. Intuitively I wander to a garden in the city and stroll through and find myself looking at a dilapidated fountain no longer in use. As I go to walk past, unphased by it, a womans head on the fountain captivates me, and who do you think it was? Medusa. Of all places, of all countries, of all times….there she was, looking at me with her very obvious snake hair. Fast forward to the following day, I’m walking along Gran Via, the busiest street in madrid full of shopping centres and shops and restaurants. Im in a busy crowd, dodging my way through the pedestrian traffic and a police man walks past me, immediately I notice this tattoo on his arm of no one other than…Medusa- her snakey tendrils starkly obvious. I laughed out loud in that moment at the sheer synchronicity of this very event and thanked the goddess for always being with me and guiding me onto the path.

Another story- working with goddess Hecate- queen of the cross-roads, keeper of realms, she’s often symbolised with a pomegranate, she was also the only one to witness Persephone’s decent into the underworld. The week I work with Hecate, was the week I arrived in Granada, and what does Granada mean in Spanish? Pomegranate. I love this work…

Aside from all of this, Granada has also been a time and place of self-initiations, deeper self-listening and hearing the call of my powerful intuition, something that I still sometimes doubt the credibility of, to this day. I have received visions, messages, dreams, knowings and have met some very powerful Beings here who are helping me to harness my psychic abilities and skills. I feel like this goddess work has activated something deeper within me, something that needed to be tuned to a higher frequency, and it’s lead me here to this very moment in time. I’m seeing spirits, feeling past lives, hearing songs and messages from deceased souls looking for retribution and peace. A friend who I’ve recently connected with has been guiding me along this not so normal path and leading me from fear into love, from having my ‘door’ shut to having better boundaries. So far, I’ve helped 2 spirits with healing and moving on. This work is very new to me so I often doubt it, tell myself that I’m making it up, the ego getting in the way. But my body knows its real, when I get the full body shivers and rush of visions in my third eye space, an overwhelming sensation that a presence is nearby.

See I’ve always feared this work as I thought that I had to give MY energy to them, that they needed ME, that I always had to be available 24/7 to help them and that there’s a lot of ‘evil’ ones out there. All these beliefs have been based in fear. Fear has its own vibrational frequency which we then become magnets for these beings. However, the energetic frequency of Mary Magdalene energy that I’ve been working with for the last 12 months have transformed the way I feel about this. Her frequency is PURE LOVE, the purest love that I think I’ve ever felt. I’ve connected with her frequency multiple times in meditation, in breathwork, in ayahuasca, in mushroom journeys, in sacred sexual connections. Sophia wisdom of the ultimate divine feminine energy…love, nurturing, connection, maternal lineage. She has gotten me through some of the hardest times and I continue to devote my life to her.

My dear friend is teaching me how to stipulate boundaries with these spirits, have a list of rules on my ‘door’ specifying my ‘rules’, my boundaries and only sending the invitation out to the spirit realm to the beings who are kind, respectful and willing to work with me to transcend. I had one dear woman come to me, who I’ve connected with before, she showed up at my ‘doorstep’ and in my ‘rose garden’, ready to move on. I called on the strength and guidance of Mary Magdalene to help support me to support the woman and it was one of the most humbling experiences I’ve had in a long time.

Spain has been a journey of self-initiations and anchoring me into a greater power that I never knew I possessed. I look forward to the many more that will come